My Movie starring ME

I thought I should note before I go on anymore that I will not be naming names in any of my writings (I could call them blogs but 'writings' sound more romantic). I will of course be talking about some of my closest friends and my family, because they are of course my loved ones. I will not however name them, most of you will figure out who they are anyway.
So...
ME is my movie. ME has written, directed and stared in this movie since ME was born over 23 years ago. ME is the constant and very visual innner monologue I have running in my head. This is mostly to do with my self obsessive and compulsive need to look like I'm in a movie or TV show.  I often find that even when I'm walking down the street I think about how I look to the outside world, as if a camera was constantly pointed on me. I am in constant need to please some external factor, to look like I play the part of a young and fun person.
It occured to me whilst having one of these movie moments on the street that I have had this same feeling since I was 16 years old and I believe it is to do with that fact I actually miss the serious overdose of hormones that we all go through.
Sit back, think about it. The best books, movies, tv shows, feelings, experiences all happen at that age when we're just too young to do anything about it. So, when ME was 16, I remember the best feelings being the ones where you felt like the world was going to end. And of course, I am talking about all those feelings you feel when you fall in love. The key word here being fall and boy did I fall hard. Every day was a constant drama with me because I know that I am a drama queen and God bless that boy for sticking by me 'cause was he hell in the mood for any drama. That movie reel was still whirring round my head though, watching me, telling me that it would stop filming the moment my life got boring. So I made sure, no boredom for my viewers, but when the only viewer of ME was me you become your own worst critic and I'm hoping that eventually I will get bored of the drama.
Fingers are crossed. Toes too.